WarningThis poetry is explicit and may contain references to sexual abuse / ritual abuse / self harm / suicideal ideation. Please do not read if you think you will be distressed.
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Tag Archives: dissociative identity disorder
We are exhausted. Having survived our son’s presentation evening without giving ourselves away and even managing to feel proud of ourself, the last few days have been hideous. Anxiety levels have gone through the roof about everything and anything. Even … Continue reading
Tonight I am struggling with doubts about who I am and where I have come from. I am now down to only 4 more sessions until my therapist retires. After the acute grief that I felt initially, just recently I … Continue reading
Today we woke up with the overwhelming need to regain a semblance of normality. The last few months have been anything but, and somehow today has been the day when we try and pull ourselves together. It may be because … Continue reading
I have been questioning my multiplicity today. What proof do I have that I can give to others of these parts inside me that cause me so many problems? What proof is there that I am not just attention seeking? … Continue reading
The idea of your fingers touching and holding Turns my stomach and reviles my senses Yet longing for closeness, for love and tenderness I push you away and blank you out. It hurts too much to look in your eyes … Continue reading
We’re moving house in 5 days time. It’s stressful, very stressful. But I can’t remember who it was that wanted to move. Which one of me was in control at that time? They’ve picked a very nice little house, but … Continue reading
Warning, this is probably TMI. Triggers sex, child sexual abuse, rape. I dissociate during sex. Tonight I gave in and indulged my husband and soared up to the ceiling to watch this other Andrea do the bad thing. I hovered … Continue reading
Fairy tales are not always innocent stories told to delight children. Sometimes they are used for much deeper and darker purposes. The following may trigger, I am sorry but I need to empty my head tonight.
Time is running out by andbenrow on polyvore.com
I’m lost in myself at the moment. It feels like my brain has switched off and wrapped me up in a thick, white cloud of fluff. I walk along the street and feel outside of life, separate from the world, … Continue reading